The look. November 6, 2008

Sawa ! okay am sorry lol i do realise it has been five months since my last post but hey i can explain !

See, there’s this sweet thang in my presence that i just wanna eat up ! okay thats a bit dramatic..lol i mean woiye she just gives me that look and am all mellow, i really can’t help it. I try ! after hours of rocking and singing and feeding and the whole shabang that will successfully give me at least a good half hour to myself in the morning, well at least before sweetness opens up her lungs in a cry that would convince anyone she is practically starving..that half hour is my gift from God- i know ! trust me, gals when/if you have a newborn, you will agree with me..half an hour is alot!

So anyway i need to do everything i want for the morning in that half hour..then back to the feed-change-rock-cuddle-sing to routine until the next little slot in the afte. Now its either i make big bkfast and chill out, take a luxury shower, clean up house, stare at sleeping beauty or sit at kompiyuta and browse blogs.
Me, i am a woman (lol like duh!) and because women have the great ability to multitask, i therefore usually grab quick bkfast and sit at kompiyuta having my bkfast with sleeping beauty strategically placed within ’staring level’..and it seems to work for me. Problem is, because i have such a short time, i can only : click on link ( bite bread ) , scroll down page reading ( sip tea ) stare at sweetness for a sec and then click anaa link ! no time to comment, no time to sit there and reflect after reading your post ! certainly no time for me to post..kwanza the many times i have tried, man, it’s like she knows coz she gives me the look.That look that says ‘woiiiiiiiyeeeeeee’..the look that seems to tell me’ don’t you dare woman!’ and i just can’t resist so down coz the screen and yet again, i am prisoner to her look. lol

Look at that cute ,woishe-looking, pick-me-up, i want u look ! and how does she wake up looking so fwyne ? no ‘mathogos’ or whatever they’re called- that uchafu at the corner of your eyes when you wake up..no drooling at corner of mouth..lol she’s just like her mummy on waking up- fresh and lovely like the morning daisy hahaha

aarrrggghh, I will soon come up with a look of my own that tells her ‘woiyeee kamoja tu ‘..a ka small post like this.

this is not the end..i shall be back !

mistake to blessing May 12, 2008

You know the way you have a tight pal, maybe your partner even alafu one day you guys fall out..if you were dating, then the r/ship obviously reaches an end. Thing is, it’s not that either of you wanted to get to that point or anything..had never crossed your mind and as my gal would say ‘you were both in happiness’.

So what happened?..eeh, man, this world is harsh..shit happens and one evening your reading a ‘goodnight’ text from ure better half/ good friend and then less than 24hrs later your life totally changes and theres no way in the world you can be with this person again. lol i know it sounds dramatic and you’re probably thinking aiii why not..but trust me there are some things that happen in this life that just are like that lool yes..i would know and anyway love should concur all barriers and shit-that’s what they say but hey we are all human and it is in no way fair or loving of you to put someone else in a situation where they will forever be forced to make excuses for you to everyone they know just so their ‘hunging onto the rship / friendship’ out of love sounds normal..apana, i refuse.

Yeah..dunno where that storo came from really, was just thinking how horrible a person we are at times when we hurt the people we love most..and the worst part of it being that you know that as much as you would kill for their lovely company and as much as you enjoyed being with them..it is really out of love that you let them go.We might have just made a stupid mistake and man is to err yes but some mistakes and scars last a life time and only we have ourselves to blame..noone should ever suffer for my mistakes but me- thats what i feel.

So yes, twaddlie just being thoughtfull and having a wierd morning reminiscing but then i just remembered that even in the midst of all our blaming ourselves mistakes or whatever , that very mistake could be pleasant, a blessing and the reason you didn’t jump off a cliff from guilt lol, not that i would haha but you get my drift?…shit happens but count your blessings..yep my blessings i shall count and finally stop suffocating myself in guilt and ‘kiwaru’ feelings.

oh and the mother is here as of yesterday..cant wait for the uji !!

Don’t feel like editing the post lol and i dunno if its coherent but whatever hehe..i need to go shower and ran to work.Lovely week everyone…

have i told you all that i penda you all ?? haha hibernation make you lose some sanity but i do..i read thee blogs everyday and i penda (using ‘love’ might scare you tihihi) you all even those bloggers i havent met shauri yenu i still do !!

lol ok ok ok…must be happiness from my ‘mistake turned blessing’ …toodles.