mistake to blessing May 12, 2008

You know the way you have a tight pal, maybe your partner even alafu one day you guys fall out..if you were dating, then the r/ship obviously reaches an end. Thing is, it’s not that either of you wanted to get to that point or anything..had never crossed your mind and as my gal would say ‘you were both in happiness’.

So what happened?..eeh, man, this world is harsh..shit happens and one evening your reading a ‘goodnight’ text from ure better half/ good friend and then less than 24hrs later your life totally changes and theres no way in the world you can be with this person again. lol i know it sounds dramatic and you’re probably thinking aiii why not..but trust me there are some things that happen in this life that just are like that lool yes..i would know and anyway love should concur all barriers and shit-that’s what they say but hey we are all human and it is in no way fair or loving of you to put someone else in a situation where they will forever be forced to make excuses for you to everyone they know just so their ‘hunging onto the rship / friendship’ out of love sounds normal..apana, i refuse.

Yeah..dunno where that storo came from really, was just thinking how horrible a person we are at times when we hurt the people we love most..and the worst part of it being that you know that as much as you would kill for their lovely company and as much as you enjoyed being with them..it is really out of love that you let them go.We might have just made a stupid mistake and man is to err yes but some mistakes and scars last a life time and only we have ourselves to blame..noone should ever suffer for my mistakes but me- thats what i feel.

So yes, twaddlie just being thoughtfull and having a wierd morning reminiscing but then i just remembered that even in the midst of all our blaming ourselves mistakes or whatever , that very mistake could be pleasant, a blessing and the reason you didn’t jump off a cliff from guilt lol, not that i would haha but you get my drift?…shit happens but count your blessings..yep my blessings i shall count and finally stop suffocating myself in guilt and ‘kiwaru’ feelings.

oh and the mother is here as of yesterday..cant wait for the uji !!

Don’t feel like editing the post lol and i dunno if its coherent but whatever hehe..i need to go shower and ran to work.Lovely week everyone…

have i told you all that i penda you all ?? haha hibernation make you lose some sanity but i do..i read thee blogs everyday and i penda (using ‘love’ might scare you tihihi) you all even those bloggers i havent met shauri yenu i still do !!

lol ok ok ok…must be happiness from my ‘mistake turned blessing’ …toodles.